Why doesn't this addiction go away?
the pain keeps deepening
and my broken smile had disappeared
I keep going drowned in pain
when will it go away
I can't use my razor blade
I don't want to cut
I hurt all my friends
and mostly myself
but yet it keeps coming back
the painful memories of him
why won't he come back to me
I cut with only one reason
only one main cause
you won't ever understand it
till you understand me
you could never guess
how I feel deep inside
the pain keeps growing
yet I can't reach for my blade
all the pain would go away
if I could just sit and cut
no one could imagine
the pain pulling through
I feel so lost and betrayed
and nothing ever gets better
my addiction keeps getting stronger
if you wake up tomorrow
and I'm not here
don't ever think its your fault
just realize I'm better now
and your the only thing that matters.
