Neglect

Leave me alone with my shadows
They are my only true friends
I utterly refuse to heal my wounds
To them I will not and cannot tend

I just let the blood drip dangerously
Through the cracks in the floor
The cuts will never begin to heal
They'll soon become such a bore

I chose to run in front of a car
Unfortunately, I survived without a scratch
I wanted desperately for it to hit me
But cars don't seem to be my match

The kids, they make fun of me continually
They cruelly beat me up at school
They call me horrible names and laugh at me
They think that they're so awesome and so cool

They p*ss me off so badly
They make me shiver with disgust
The water filling up my lungs
This is an absolute must

But I survived that one too
Unfortunate, I must say
Because no one would've thought
That it could've worked today

I tied a rope around my neck
And hung it from the ceiling light
I was so excited to jump off the stool
Words couldn't begin to express my delight

I know this is wrong, but no one really cares
And I'm almost positive no one ever will
The sensations I felt were amazing
Something I never thought I'd feel

I jumped off of my little stool
I was so proud of what I did
I hung there for a mere moment
My body even twitched a little bit

Then someone had discovered my corpse
Just dead and cold as ice hanging there
They called 911, so doctors could retrieve my body
They don't and never have cared

Everyone was invited to my dark funeral
Over half of them didn't even come
No one there was any of my family members
Because my family is heartless and numb

I wish that someday they might begin to care
But instead, all they did was make me a wreck
This is what happened to me
Because all I had was neglect

They used to throw me and hit me
Leaving their mark, bruises and scrapes
They would yell and scream, rant and rave
At an eventual point, they turned to rape

Remember this next time you decide you want to hit your kid
Look at your child, and look deep inside
Because it's really not worth it
Leading a child to suicide

**I wrote this when I felt like dying.**