Rain

I open my window
To listen to rain...
I'm so disillusioned
Trading smiles for pain.

Ran from you,
Ran from me,
Tore out my own heart
And hand it down to you.

Could've been happy,
Could've learned to care
About more than myself
You should have been spared.

Can't let go,
Can't leave behind;
All I've done to myself,
All screwed up inside.

So self-contained,
So unaware...
You said Good bye,
And now I care?

The rain fell down,
And you walked away.
Rain from my eyes,
Dark drops run astray.

Stood there for hours,
Watching though you were gone.
Mirages in raindrops
By my broken mind drawn.

It's all my fault:
I let you go,
I could've tried,
Made the feelings show.

Instead I cried,
Instead I'd hide,
Just too obsessed
With my own life.

You tried to help -
I pulled away,
Ignored every
Good thing you'd say.

I knew you cared
and i wanted to...
But I felt so depressed,
Couldn't go to you.

So you came to me,
Done with all my self-blame...
It's my fault I'm here
Crying with the rain....