Thoughts in my head

Lets all take a ride,
a little trip inside my head.
Lets look at my thoughts,
of all the things that I dread.

It's a jumble,
of blood and tears.
Not just some gore,
but a lot of things I fear.
There isn't any sunshine in there,
just rain and despair.
No ponies at the fair,
no laughter in the air.

I see death and desrtuction,
and that's not the most I see.
it's the worst kidn of destruction,
when it's all about me.

I see myself dying,
I see myself dead.
sometimes I want to end it and shoot myself in the head.

I'm bleeding on the ground now,
I can't seem to understand how,
I keep on living with what's inside me.