I'm not sad

I’m not sad, I’m just not happy
I smile, although it’s not always real
I’m not sad, I just don’t remember
What life’s like, when you can feel

I’m not sad. I’m just crying
Silent tears stream down my cheeks
I’m not sad, I’m just empty
Been like this for so many weeks

I’m not sad, I’m just confused
By emotions, just teenage years
I’m not sad, I’m just afraid
Constantly followed by petty fears

I’m not sad, I’m just lonely
Although I know you are always there
I’m not sad, I’m just ignoring
All the people who say they care

I’m not sad, I’m just broken
So long I have spent feeling so numb
I’m not sad, I’m just stupid
Once so clever, now so dumb

I’m not sad, I’m just not smiling
Empty look consumes my pale face
I’m not sad, I’m just a fake
Lived to long in this empty place

I’m not sad, I’m just bored
Attention flies right past me
I’m not sad, I’m just paranoid
Of the things no on else can see

I’m not sad, I’m just not breathing
One last breath until the end
I’m not sad, I’m just escaping
From the people known as my friends

I’m not sad, I’m just moaning
About a life where nothings wrong
I’m not sad, I’m just drained
Empty soul, its been too long

I’m not sad, I’m just jaded
Far too deep under your spell
I’m not sad, I’m just falling
Faster and faster in to hell

I’m not sad, I’m just fixated
Addicted to this strange obsession
I’m not sad, I’m just so cold
From living deep under depression