Here I am again writing about fantasies and dreams about something that will never be
I feel blind by my love for you because I know we can’t be together yet it’s something I just can’t see.
I need to get over it but believe me I’ve tried so many times before; I just quit trying
I want to quit the quick glances, the dreaming, the thoughts; I want to quit the crying.
Its sick how I open my heart to someone even though I know it’s just gonna bring more pain
Words don’t come anywhere near being able to describe how I feel but tears show it because they’re like a dark downpour of rain.
My heart skips a beat every time I see you walking past
A chill of excitement passes it and then I realize how much I wish that this feeling would last.
I have a hard time opening up because I’m so emotional, so fragile, so weak
I can’t really hide who I am anymore because my eyes do their own thing, for themselves they speak.
I wish I could just have one moment to hold you hand or just be able to feel your precious touch.
I never stop thinking about the ifs, the could’s, and the maybe’s, I never thought I could love so much.
But then im unexpectedly hit with the harsh reality of how you feel about me.
It was just how I said and it took the sign of my life to finally open my eyes and see.
I felt pain like I have never felt before but somehow it was all to familiar to my broken tattered heart
As hard as it is to say it, I’m not wanted, I have to swallow the pain and move on, its not easy, but it’s a start
So I am gonna conclude this poem with one final farewell even though I know its only gonna make me cry.
I just wanna say I’m sorry for what I have put you through and it wont happen again, im done forever, I’m sorry, goodbye.
