My False Appearance...

After all this time
I still feel very sad
So ill write another rhyme
To share my pain inside

I cried some countless tears
For I really want to die
And all Ive gained is fears
For my life is one big lie

This life I want to leave
Theres nothing here for me
Even though Ive tried to believe
A mistake is all Ill be

I know you see me smile
But I promise you its fake
You say my life is worthwhile
But its a false allusion that I make

These rhymes consist of strife
This one might be my last
For this grip I thought I had on life
I'm losing oh so fast

This rhyme thats almost done
Is the worst I've ever made
Even though its fun
I feel my will about to fade

In the end they make me mad
For they never come out right
I post them feeling sad
For no matter what Ill lose the fight...

..yea I tried writing with a different style...and i hate how this turned out...
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