Nightmare

I was alone, just thinking
Mostly about you
When your name showed up on my phone
It was like a strange deja vu
I wondered why you'd call me from your house
So very late at night
I immediately began to worry
That things were not alright
I stared at my phone
My hands seemed to freeze in place
I couldn't figure out what was wrong with me
Or what I was about to face
I told my fingers to move
But they were no use
I felt so strange, so distant
My priorities were loose
Finally I somehow managed
To answer your late call
But to my surprise, it wasn't you
Your mother was reporting your fall
She said that you were dead
I couldn't hear her over my heart
It was beating louder than the drums
And then, my life fell apart
I asked her what she meant
And she said, I'm sorry honey...
Someone on my TV was laughing
When life was no longer funny
The room began to spin
As I collapsed on the floor
My room began to fall away
I couldn't find the door
Faces were swimming in the air
I couldn't focus on one
They swirled all around me
Pointing and making fun
Telling me I was no help
That I made you die
I started sobbing, and suddenly it was dark
I just kept asking God why
And suddenly I was on top of a building
The wind blowing through my hair
I was on the very edge
And there was no one there
To catch me from the fall that awaited
I would join you, it seemed
And as I fell, I screamed so loud
And I woke up from my dream
I was shaking, in a cold sweat
It was the worst nightmare, the worst fantasy
But it brought relief to me in knowing
You had, in reality, not left me.

*Ugh, nightmares suck!!*