My life

by Amanda   Apr 27, 2005


My life is not so easy,
so you will soon see,
Nobody wants to know,
someone quite like me,

All twenty years of my life,
I have always been in pain,
I'm sure now I'll be happy,
It won't be ever the same,

My new life I live with you,
seems so very good,
but it's not so easy,
to be misunderstood,

Deep down inside my heart,
I will always love you,
No matter what ever,
I decide to do,

I just feel so hurt by it all,
more than you've ever known,
I feel so very angry at myself,
when I am sitting all alone,

I always want to scream,
and I only ever want to cry,
I hate and I love my mum,
and now I don't know why.

When I think of my mum,
it makes me feel so sad,
only wanted her to love me,
and it made me feel so bad.

Copyright 2005 - Amanda Linzi

This was wrote in february last year. i put that no-one wants to know someone like me because i got bullied at school for being in care. Please comment.This poem is about my mixed emotions. It means i love my foster mum but don't know how i feel about my real mum. :)

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  • 19 years ago

    by Robert

    I first formally met my real dad in jail some years ago but I found that my adopted dad had so much more heat and love for me. I never really felt that until I met my real dad. I always felt unwanted or rejected. In school as well as with him. I think I made my stand when I went to see my Real dad, and I know it was the best thing I ever did. Look in your heart for whats true. with either family take the best of every person you meet and adapt it to your life I think thats the best thing to do. Great write I enjoyed it and I can understand where you come from I been down that road myself...

  • 19 years ago

    by newlun

    thats a great poem keep up the good work

  • 19 years ago

    by AJ

    Hey, I liked it. Good job. ~keep it up~

    -no more

  • 19 years ago

    by Courtney Lynn

    Another Great Poem!!

  • 19 years ago

    by BleedingAngel

    Wow Amanda, this really broke my heart =0( so sad and powerful!!! You know I'm here for you.... I know that you considder you foster mom as your "mom", but nothing can take the feelings for your real mom away!!! I hope that you are ok today??? I'm so sorry you got bullied with something so emtional....

    *Love always Sabrina*