Burning words in my mouth

I thought I lost you
My heart began to break

I heard the talk of you being dishonest
From a close friend who wouldn't act fake

I couldn't speak to you that night
Because you had been in a fight

Your hand was bloody
And my sight was blinded from fright

I couldn't stand the thought
That you had been with any other then me

We have had our separate pasts
But this is our future together
Or apart

I didn't know what to do or to say
I didn't ever know if I felt that I loved you anyway

But how could I be hurt
If the feelings weren't there

And I realized that night as I cried my rare tears
That I'm in love with you.

I went all day
Sad and confused.

Why did I have to love you
And why couldn't I refuse

Even when I was mad
I wanted to be held

I wanted no other arms around me
Then the ones you posses.

But my sky cleared
When I found out that it was untrue

But yet my heart still felt wounded because I hadn't seen you yet.

And I'm scared at the fact that I can't say I love you
Not just yet

Thought I feel it and my heart is true
I don't know about yours

Last night you showed up barely before my curfew and kissed my lips

Making the words that I hold
Try to burn threw my smiling lips

I want these words to mean something
Not like they have in my past

Back when I have said them and
yet I didn't

This is a curse and a blessing
and my future will be in luck

If you are having as hard a time holding back these words every single night.