With love

How did it ever come to this
Dark and empty inside
Why can I not open my heart anymore
Why do I still run and hide
When the only thing that I know in my life
Is what I felt when you were mine
Now it is black and cold and empty in me
Instead of our love divine
I used to watch you as you slept
Lean in to inhale your scent
Now I lie in the dark with my bleeding heart
Dreaming of those hours we spent
I used to see the look on your face
When I wore my heart on my sleeve
I am a fool I know for I hurt you so
And now you will never believe
I used to dream that you always love me
That you’d be mine for all of my life
Right from the start you had my heart
And all I dreamt of was being your wife
This decision you have taken to stop your pain
I can’t blame you I would do the same
If you got into bed with another each night
I wouldn’t be able to take the pain
After all the time we spent apart
And the decision that you have made
Don’t ask me to tell me if I love you
Or tell what could have been if I had stayed
Don’t tell me that you miss me please anymore
That you want to feel my caress
Don’t tell my that I broke your broken heart
Or make me feel that I could not care less
Because I sit here ever single night alone
My arms aching to be around you
I thought after a while it would get easier
Still hear knowing not what to do
Please don’t ask me to open up to you
When all I am trying to be your friend
I cannot take anymore my wounds are too sore
Just walk away and that will be the end
I cannot do it again I cannot leave you alone
Even if I do you are still in my head
I am feeling so bleak so down and so weak
Not knowing what to do instead
So I sit here alone, writing line after line
As the rain gets harder from above
And wipe the silent tears off of my cheeks
To Simon, as always, with love xx