The memoirs come back
every now and then
mostly in my dreams
when i am sleeping
in my bed.what u did
i don't think i will ever
be able to forget how i
live each day through i
don't know ts just something
i have learned to do. how
u treated me i didn't think
u were that kinda guy
but it turned out that i was
wrong. thats the only thing
u wanted from me i was nothing
just a pieces of meat, another no-ch
on your bet is what u try ed to make me. this body is mine and i never said u could touch
it but u did it anyway
u ignored the tears. and
u surely did not wanna
here what i had to say,
saying no it does not mean
yes no is no and u failed
that test u broke my
heart you broke me
inside the girl i use to be
i don't think i will ever
be able to find.them
memories i try so hard
to Bary to leave them
behind but u keep
showing up u keep coming
to mind and my tears i
am tired of hiding behind.
touching me they way you did i should have knew
u never cared but i guess
its good to have a friend
who is there u would have
done so much more
if my Friend did not care
she was there and you finally
stopped she scared you
and i thank god she was
there you did get that far
and that a blessing for me
your were so strong there
was no way in hell i
could have ever fight u off
and if she never
came i think u would have
taking things way to
far. as i look back at it now i believe that u would have raped
me if she never came i think u would have done that
with out a care in the world.
~Ashleigh~
* this happened to me last year it really messed me up to know that i could have got raped. the only reason i believe the guy stopped was because my best friend at the time walked in thank God.*
