My Suicide Note

Please tell me you'll remember
don't let a rainy day pass
for enough tears will have been cried
don't think i take it for granted
It scares me the love part
for when Ive said i love you
i thought i meant it in the past
now Ive come to learn its true meaning
if only you could read my heart
then you'd know everything Ive said is so true
i walk this world blind
taking it step by step
not seeing the day
or the light
only the darkness surrounding me
if you could read my soul
then the tears you cry
the tears you have cried
here i am i ask your forgiveness
even though the tears might not have been my own doing
i wish to take it all away
my life, my pathetic asinine way of life
empathetically i crawl
this hysterical apathy is burdening me
life is the question
the choices are live it or don't
to die, to sleep no more
to go on straggling, with love
with two broken legs
and a broken heart to boot, i run
i hide i don't want the world to see
to see the true me
if you could read my heart
you see my true mid air love message
withing arms reach, at the end of your grasp
i lie, i struggle
life the question is clear
but the answer is still not known
for to live a life
A scary thought
for knowing you have control of your life
means you take on the responsibilities of other life's
for if you decide to live it
then you effect others
but if you decide to take it, it could cause a chain of events
one life being taken, leading to another
please tell me you'll remember
the hatred, the anger, the despair
for if all you remember is happiness and love
then you'll have lost a part of me
as time stays true
and the sands of time count down
forever a piece of me will be with you
filling the hatred, the hopelessness.... the despair, the desolation
filling it with my love, pushing away your fears
though you deserve so much better
you wont find a love so true
so as my life spares me just three last words
you will here I LOVE YOU...............
but unlike all suicide notes are suppose to end
i wont send my best wishes goodbyes and not your fault.......ill just say......I love you