Real

Here I am trying to write a poem about how I really feel inside,
People who have tryed this know how hard it is to really say how you really feel in your heart and soul...
I feel as though I want to be sad and alone and in pain,
But why would I feel like that?
I don't understand,
Then I become confused about why I feel that way and it makes me feel as though I am crazy,
I feel like an idiot,
Tears come,
It is all so confusing...
I sit here alone in my room crying trying to make sense of my life and think,
Why do I feel like this?
There is no reason for me to feel like this,
So why do I?
So once again I come to the thought that I want to be like this,
And it starts all over again,
But the question I can't get out of my head is Why?
Why am I this way?