Dreaming of a Better Way

Ever wondered why we do it
Why we create more ‘pain’
To cure the inside feelings,
making it physical, and visible,
and focussing all from the inside to the outside
Making it all real

Satisfying to watch
The blood just beading out
My emotions once again escape
My anger, my doubt, my tears
My heartbreak, relieving my self
of these morbid fears

everything feels normal again
when the pouring blood
comes to an end
but this will only last tonight
Quick, now, sleep, before it gets light

Trying so hard to rid my soul
Of all the enemies within
Living inside like an empty hole
This isn’t a sin
Its my choice
The only way out
Never wanted to feel this shame
Just Dreaming of a better way

Ending it now
Just letting go
This is my life
Just look at it now

© Lucy Green