I didn't realize how much it affected me until today,
when I wanted to cry because I was afraid to share that part of my life.
I thought I was okay,
and that what happened only made me stronger.
I didn't think the pain went back so far,
or that it would hurt so bad now.
You don't understand the pain you caused me,
or even why it hurt me so much.
I think that's the worst of it,
the fact that you can't admit your mistakes.
I was the one left alone and scared,
and all because you couldn't be the person you were suppose to be.
