Potentially Lethal Secret

I cannot take this living hell anymore for reasons that I only I am wishing to pretend I cannot see,

My friends tell me that cutting is bad and I shouldn't be so damn depressed but I can only say that those messages were never recieved.

I can only say so many times of the pain I feel inside and the feelings that I wish were real as I watch someone else kiss,

I see them there and blankly nod away a tear as I turn away for I know that my fantasy is nothing more than bliss.

"Hold my hand please" I scream in my head as I fall deep into the hole of shallow hope and broken shards of glass known as will,

I fall into it and thought I try to shift I bleed until I have nothing left to but to look up and remain still.

Apathy is something I have known throughout my life though I also knew that I couldn't try giving pity to myself.

I would slice the knife across and watch the blood as it falls only to catch myself thinking "What else?"

The thought often stirred my mind but I would just ignore it and tell my friends to let me be.

Too bad I was way too depressed to try to tell them the deathly and potential secret of the tainted heart that resided inside me...

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