Contimplations

I'm slowly dying
Decaying on the inside
You can try to look inside me
But there is nothing really to find

All i have
Is a dead and broken heart
Been hurt so many times
It's fallen apart

The scars are only reminders
Of the painful memories and lies
While everyone thinks I'm okay
My mind slowly dies

And the smile on my face
Is only so i can hide
But no one realizes
My soul has already died

The tears that fall from my tired eyes
Are caused from all the pain
All i ever wanted was
To be normal and sane

But this world is way to much
And I just can't handle it anymore
With all these contemplations of suicide
I slowly shut the door