Look at me...I am dying, can't you see? I am worthless...you have taught me that much. My character has all but disappeared...You say I choose another over you, but that is not so...what have we done wrong to have this torment put upon us...
Do you even care? Do you even believe anymore that I am something other than the rest of the world's cliche, average girl? Do you care how you hurt me? I care how I have hurt you...and her. I want to hurt neither of you! Can't you understand?! You cannot stop love with a thick chain! You cannot decide which person to love or not to love! You let your demon decide for you! I'm dying because of him!
Can't you see how he poisons your mind? I don't give a shit what people here are looking at...this is my dying heart...my last plea.
The All-knowing one may be quite intelligent, but he knows nothing of real love...nor does he want to. He deceives...and he has caused me nothing but pain...but maybe that is what you want to hear...I just don't know anymore!!!
Am I overreacting? Or am I not letting myself out enough? Am I too boring? Or should I settle down for you? Is it me?! Is it her?! Is it my demon mother?! How can you be so cruel...as to say
It's over piss off!
Didn't you hear what I said?!
How these words have tortured me, so...but no...you did not care. He was with you then. Do you care anymore? I am being bereft of you because you are dying to him and letting him take control over you. The man I once knew is gone...yes you can be rid of him. I don't care if you gave him your word...you gave ME your word that you would always be here...
How can I live only loving a memory...
How can I live on...knowing that who I am "in love with" is just an empty shell comprised of a menacing demon of hatred towards my flesh? It will tear me open and make my blood and tears flow...but is that not what you want now? I do not know anymore. I don't know if you love me. I don't know anything! I see Halet...yes, I see her. And she tells me I told you so, that this should come to be. It was only a matter of time...and I was foolish enough to believe that I could ever have another's trust and love...
Ever...
My demise...
I have bled all I care to, and yet I still bleed on...I don't want to hurt anymore. Would you comfort me with your warm arms? Or will you now push me away? I can no longer tell who is there inside your dark eyes...which one hates me more?
Duriel? Or you?
