Just my dad and me

I wish someone just could understand
just whats going through my head
and notice without the other half of my life
i might as well be dead

i never thought id envy
someone i hate so much
it cuts me up deep
knowing ill never again feel his touch

i was so close to him
we did everything together
but i was stupid
thinking that would last forever

Now my step mum has everything
everything including my life
now all i got left
is my best friend the knife

i promised i wouldn't again
because i didn't want everyone to know
but look at me now
its so obvious because it shows

i get so scared
because no one truly understands
i no longer have my dad
to through everything hold my hand

i miss him so much
hes no longer there
if only i could tell him how i feel
and how much ill always care

but hes not the same person
as he used to be
my wish will never come true
it will never again be just my dad and me