That Night

Sometimes things are confusing,
Other things are mess up,
I'm so lost,
That Monday night worst night in my life,
I don't remember most of that night,
But I put things back to pieces,
I was a little buzz,
I remember seeing you with him,
That tears me apart,
That mad me angry,
Pulled my out my knife,
Friends took it away,
I wanted to run away,
Got huge fright with my friends,
Went to my friend house,
I had a bedroom in her house,
Talk on my computer,
My friends come into my room,
I sat there and cry,
Knowing that I was stupid to fell in love with him so quickly,
My friends sat on my bed,
With pictures of you two making out,
M friend made a burn book,
I didn't really want to see it,
It hurts too much,
It still hurts me,
I have no clue why I love you,
I just do,
I look myself in my bathroom in my room,
I took a bottle of pills,
One by one I shallower the pills,
I remember falling down on the floor,
Tyler and Greg knock the door down,
They tired to woke me up,
But I was in dreamy land,
I didn't want to woke up,
At that point I didn't care,
I just didn't want to feel hurt,
That night I meet my guarding angles,
They said I have to be strong,
Don't give up on yourself,
Everything going be OK,
Just remember your dreams,
That we are watching over you,
Never do this again,
You have a life to live,
Don't give up on your dreams,
Keep it real,
We have to go now,
I made a big promise to my friends,
I'm keeping it,
I can think about it,
But I won't hurt myself,
Never again,
Promise my real friends,
Saw the scare in your friends,
I never really remember what happen,
Choices I made was stupid,
I'm sorry I did that,
I was angry,
I was very upset,
Couldn't take this,
I was so happy,
Friends don't steal other friend's boyfriend,
But she did,
It still hurts me,
It drove me crazy,
When I saw you with her,
I just remember you with me,
At the point I didn't want to see you,
Or her,
But I have to face her everything day,
That what hurts?
That what made me change?
My dreams are crushing down,
Maybe that why I've change,
I just don't care,
My friends are slipping away,
It seem their nothing to live for,
Yeah I meant have money,
But it doesn't bring me happy,
My parents want the best for you,
But my mind is going crazy,
Everything is changing,
Seeing, believing in myself!