Lose control

I need to take control, because I'm not here anymore
Jerking around to an empty song with no sound
Laughing on the outside inside, I can't feel
Control me through the backlog, slip to the ground

Dancing wildly with the devil, as I spin out of time
Jump around to the silence that deafens me
Out of control moving to a music I cannot hear
Punching my fists through the wall, so no one sees

Drum beat, coming from my bleeding heart
Thumping through my body, a rhythm to move to
Disfigure myself, maim my pain into oblivion
Obscurity clouds over the means to get through

Bouncing off the walls to the music of my mind
Secrecy and silence like invisible weights around my heart
Abandoned to the wolves which massacre my soul
Losing the race, I was doomed and broken from the start

Lose control as I weep shaking so lonely
Injure my self, butchery of my precious arms
Slaughter my threads of hope, In this carnage
Move to the beat, that ultimately ends in self harm