Right where I belong

Song

I peer through this hole,
a sick miserable shell of a soul I hold.
The dark is so cold,
flashes of light graze my eyes
uncontrolled.
My hand hangs off a chair,
it touches nothing,
not itself,
not the air.

This is what I am,
desolate.
Years of loneliness have become this man.
Inside there beats a heart,
it slowly ticks, ticks, ticks,
slowly ticks apart.
Inside, it gets worse with the pain,
days pass, it never stays the same.
This who I became,
I'm who I am now,
I'm forever chained.

I burn it down,
watch the embers float above,
watch the rain knock them down.
I've faded away,
I've burnt my life that I never found,
my self righteous pain and sorrow
buried my heart into the ground.

If everything around,
is inclined to be what I see,
would I ever find myself.
If I did, could I be free.
My path has withdrawn,
there is no light.
Time has slowed,
far off into the night.

This is where everything belongs,
the hollowness, this dream.
This is where I am truly free.
This is where I found me.

I see the safety of the animal within,
The animal is my other
He lives under my skin.
I've withdrawn.
Life is fleeting.
God has gone.