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Listen to me for once
Please don't turn away
Notice what I'm doing
Listen to what I say

When I say that I'm ok
I'll be better after sleep
Did you know I still cut my self?
Sometimes it goes too deep

If you notice a cut or scar
I'll say the cat sratched me
I'm really not your perfect angel
The one you wanted me to be

I'm really sorry for the lies
I know I said I was getting better
You do know it's too late
So please read this letter

This is the letter that I'm writing you
Soon to be my suicide
I'm sorry for the truth I kept
And I'm sorry for the lies

Listen I didn't mean it
But the cuts turned into burns
Sometimes people die
And today it was my turn

And again I'll say I'm sorry
But the burns turned into scars
And before I knew it
It all just went too far

The burns,lies,scars and cuts
It then turned into drugs
That's probably how I got in this mess
It all just f u c k e d me up

And I'm sorry for not listening
But you weren't always right
I'm sorry for letting you down
But I'm giving up this fight

I used to go out drinking
Then I would do weed
And before I knew it
It then turned into speed

Sometimes I would even inject
Sometimes even in my groin
I tried my very best to stop
But drugs made my life joy

But in the end I quit them all
I'd just smoke ten fags a week
And if I did do anything
All I'd do is drink

You know about my nipple piercing
And you made me feel like dirt
I can't believe what makes me pleased
Can really make you * hurt *

You know about my stomach and facial ones
You don't know about my c l i t
I also got my back stapled
But to my self I promised that was it

Hey I was no perfect angel
So that's another reason for my death
Life got too hard to cope with
So I took my final breath

I'm sorry for everything
And I know you did suspect
But you didn't know about the drugs
Or any of the effects

You didn't know about the cutting
And you didn't know about the lies
You didn't know I was unhappy
You didn't know it was a disguise

So yet again you'll never know
Because this note I'll burn
I'll take my secrets to my grave
You'll only know when it's your turn

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