I thought I was alone…

***I know this poem is stupid, but it was
written with a lot of thought, so please take
the time to criticize or complement me. It
really helps seeing what I can fix! Thanks!***

There is more people
Than I actually knew
I thought I was alone
Being sad and blue

I thought that no one
Could know how I felt
I didn’t know there were more people
Who cut instead of dealt

I really never thought about
All the other blank faces
People like me
Who were in other places

A place where it’s lonely
Cold and there’s no sound
A place were I thought
I couldn’t be found

But then I started to notice
That I would laugh instead of cry
I would think about living
Instead of wishing I’d die

Depression is lonely
Scary and sad
And all of that time
I thought I’d gone mad

That’s not what was happening
I was just out of place
And now instead of a frown
A smile’s on my face

Sometimes it’s not easy
And I wish I were there
In that dark place
With a cold, lonely stare

It’s harder than it looks
To smile and not cry
It’s harder than it looks
Not wanting to die

But when life still gets bad
I sit back on my bed
Cutting and crying
But still not wishing to be dead

I know what suicide is
And how it would hurt people I love
And I know that I’m not ready
To make the journey up above