Attention

My friends wants attention,
talks about killing herself,
like life isn't worth living,
so she damages her health.
i want to help,
and i try to understand,
i go through stuff too,
but that doesn't mean i want life to end.
i think about it sometimes,
what happens when we die,
is it better to go into the unknown,
rather than stay here and try?
what if there is no purpose to life.
maybe i should go with my friend,
but i know she is faking,
with her it's just a trend.
she says no one cares,
but when someone tries,
she'll let them comfort her,
then brush them aside.
i cant believe her lies,
she knows she has it good,
i know i should be more appreciative,
i act like I'm misunderstood.
and i am,
i think everyone is,
life can be tough,
but we take it as it is.
one day at a time,
try not to care what people say,
but it hurts sometimes,
so i consider just going away..
i know that's what they want,
just to be left alone,
so maybe I'll grant their wish,
and hope heaven is my unknown.
but i dont want to be my friend,
getting attention because of a lie,
so i don't mention my thoughts to anyone,
until i know I'm ready to die.