That boy i love

The boy I love is standing there
He knows I m here
Yet walks straight past me
He told me he loved me yesterday
Well not In those words
But you get my drift
He kissed me yesterday
Promised me he was alright
Yet minutes before changed his mind
I have ruined it now
I said something I should not have
Something I feel I made up
But I did not
I did not make it up
I know I did not
I love that lad
He loves me too
I know he does
He told me once
He missed me at break as I was in an exam
Did not see him at lunch
And he had gone before I got out after school
The only time he did not wait for me
It made me cry
Worse than crying it made me hurt
Foot stuck in the dirt
It was raining
I was not complaining just saying
It is not the same anymore
He is not the same anymore
It has ruined it
I have ruined it
I hate me now
You cant love someone if you do not love yourself
But I do love him
I know I do
I love him and he loves me
Isn’t that enough?