A New Chapter in My Life

I no longer cry tears of blood
although I still have feelings to
instead I write of my pain
and somehow that pulls me through
I always knew my problem was bad
it had become an obsession
cutting was what I always turned to
when I was so deep in my depression
it was something I thought could never hurt me
unless I was dumb and cut too deep
my scars never judged me
and just listened while I would weep
they never left me
and never will they go
for the pain and stories behind them
many will never know
I used to cut to forget
forget my problems and my past
I would fall so deep
and wish these times wouldn't last
people said that I could get through
but then I didn't believe
for from this cruel dark world
I just wanted to leave
I thought things couldn't get better
and I would always be in pain
I thought it would never go away
I thought I'd forever be insane
my life was a hurricane
noting but a storm
I was always depressed
knowing cutting wasn't the norm
I thought I would never stop
that it just couldn't be done
I just wanted to leave
but I had nowhere to run
I just needed a motive
something to live for
but I should live for me
I guess I just never figured that out before
so now I am going
to start a new chapter in my life
start a new chapter
without a knife!