Breathing with only anger, now an emotional wreckage,
Left with haunting sorrow,
Unable to live without self inflicted pain,
Slowly drowning in self hate.
Memories come to torture,
My soul breaking with each growing flaw,
Left to conquer myself once more,
Only rose tinted tears glisten at my victory.
Disease ridden, controlled by only darkness,
A victim of impure actions, thoughts and distorted visions,
Desperation for acceptance circles my rotting mind,
Sweet pretending continues.
Cruel indecisions, reason slips through gaping flesh,
Personality crushed, only a pain filled creature,
Loathing this life,
Hating, hesitating, harmful to myself and innocent others.
I see no light, only changing hell,
Stale memories linger, failing sanity now apparent,
The more time passes, I only seek further release,
Scars breeding in darkness, no hesitation, no pure mind, only clouded judgement.
