When you called after so long
it felt like a stab in the heart
you said you missed me
that you could just die
i said then do it because i don't care
i didn't know you would for me
i hung up the phone and cried
i called back to say I'm sorry
it had been a long day
it was all rubbing off in a way
you picked up and i said sorry
you said w/e and hung up
i know you were crying
i could tell by your voice
i called once more
said don't speak just listen
i played our song in the background
as i read a poem to you
you had wrote it to me
when we first met
you gave it to me on our first date
i really had missed you after so long
i never knew
until that night
we talked hours on end
about 4 hours
i looked at the clock
it read quarter till 12 at night
i said where you at?
he gave me his friends address
we agreed to meet each other
in the morning
we did and i "stayed" at my friends house
and he "stayed" at his friends
we went to the movies
gazed at the stars
we kissed and went to second base
no intention to go all the way
he was ready
but i wasn't
he asked first and i said no
he said OK
at about midnight
we started up again
he tried to go down there
i pushed him away
i wanted to
but not this age
i loved him dearly
he loved me too
he said if i loved him
i would do it
i said i love you
but no
we went back to an old apartment
he said it was his
we had a few drinks
then i passed out
i woke in the morning
naked as can be
he was laying next to me
looking at me and smiling
i knew what he had done
i got up,got dressed
then left with no goodbye
i got home and called my friend
in tears i told her everything
i was home alone
someone was at the door
it was him
i ignored it then i heard someone
they were coming up the stairs
it was him
i remembered i hadn't locked the door
he came in and jumped on me
said i tasted so good
he said he needed more
i said you raped me
how am i supposed to love a man who raped me?
he said i don't know
just act like it never happened..
i did and i ended up with his kid..
