Wanting what you cant have

Have you ever had that feeling
the feeling of hatred
but not to anyone but yourself
hating yourself for wanting someone or something you cant have?
i live with this everyday
since i met joe ive loved him
and i cant live with the knowledge that he doesnt love me back
why did she have to tell me the truth?
because he couldnt tell me himself? or was he just bottless?
i hate myself for loving him but i cant help the way i feel if only he had told me himself
told me he was gay.

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