You asked me to tell you how I felt,
Well this is the only way I can,
I’m a bit crap at explaining my feelings,
I just get all upset and quiet,
I know deep down she has gone,
I knew that the day of her funeral,
I just don’t want to believe it.
But still everywhere I go,
Where normally I’d see Lou,
I still expect to see her,
I suppose I am just acting like its all a bad dream,
Well it’s more like a nightmare,
I keep my feelings bottled up normally though,
Which is why this is so hard.
Some days nothing bothers me,
Others all I can think of is her,
It hits me at random times as well,
I could be sitting there,
And it’ll just overwhelm me,
I feel confused, upset,
And wish I could have said goodbye.
She used to play tricks on everyone,
And her mum said to me after the funeral,
“She’s played an evil trick on us this time,â€
That was a good thing for her to say though,
Claire and me laugh at all the funny stuff she’s done,
Like falling off the roundabout in her brand new jeans,
Or loosing her phone down the Rec.
She was an amazing person,
I think she knew I thought that,
But id give anything for the chance to see her again,
To say goodbye and tell her I love her,
I know that she would want me to carry on my life,
But this is one of the hardest things that’s happened,
I don’t really understand how to cope.
*about my m8 who died my councillor told me to wright how i felt ~please vote and comment*
