Maybe this time its for real

Slicing a couple little cuts into my wrist
To release the stress built up inside
I didn’t want to start this
I promised my friends that I wouldn’t
I’m sorry to them, I hope they understand
I’m not sure why but today was just too hard
My aunt died and no one told me until after school
I was so upset and I had no one to talk to
My best friends off probably getting high or stoned
I’m scared for them
They don’t realize the crap that there doing
I try to tell them. there are reasons why I don’t do it
They just don’t listen…
One night when they get really messed up because of that stuff
There going to wish they would have listened to me
My dad is making my life a living hell
My family isn’t making it any easier either
Just wishing that I could change my past
So that maybe my family could have a better life and future
Wishing I guess wont help me any
Slowly running down my arms
The blood dripping to the ground
I so badly want to call someone and tell them
All I can do now is clean up the mess I’ve made
And pretend nothing ever happened
Just like always