It still gets me.
Its almost been a year, and I'm still crying.
its just been so hard.
i still wake up and think shes alive.
but seeing the family together again.
and me still on the other end.
its hard to look at Whitney and to think shes motherless.
to think that she will grow up like this.
the family mom, I'm no longer a member.
not since the month before September.
they didn't say a word to me mom.
i just stood there, did not make a sound.
but i heard it mom.
i heard her voice.
on the tape, of when she was alive.
she was talking bout the things she loved.
i heard her laugh whose I've been wanting to hear.
i miss her so much, but shes in the pass.
mom i couldn't take it anymore, i had to go outside.
but Whitney came too, so i quickly dry ed my eyes.
we talked and then Sarah came along.
we talked for a while, once again i didn't make a sound.
i wont lie to you mom, i cry ed the way home.
knowing that i didn't just lose one, i lost them all.
but u held my hand all the way home.
you though i was fine, well you were wrong.
i had tears rolling down my face.
tears i haven't seen in almost a year.
but when we were home i dry ed my face, ran before you saw me.
it wasn't the right place.
but as soon as you left the room, many tears on my face.
mom i wont lie, i miss her a lot.
i think of her everyday.
i love her so much.
the family's back together.
but i got left out.
so please remember, that i love you to.
*Dedicated to my mom and my Aunt Cindy, my aunt Cindy died in May 2004...but in my heart she will always live, mom thanks for everything you do even though you'll never read this. This was based on a true story on real affections, and realistic thoughts* please rate and comment, it wold mean a lot.
