Ramblings

When you look at me
Do you see what I see?
I see a broken girl
Who's eyes look like hollow caves.
Is it normal to wish you were dead
Everynight while you try to fall to sleep
Yet You know that seldoms comes
And if it does, you don't dream.
I feel like a shadow as I walk
I refuse to see anyone
I see them, yet I don't register
Their presence on this earth.
I wish I had someone
Anyone to love
I wish I had someone to hold me
While I star into space at night.
I'm sick of my life being controlled
But this disease, this pain
Although this disease is all part
Of my entangled mind.
I feel so pathetic that I complain
So much about my life
I wish I could just die
So many more people suffer more than me.