It\\\'s getting easier now
i saw you the other day
i didn\\\'t start sweating, i didn\\\'t start to shake, even when you looked at me like you couldn\\\'t believe i was standing there
like you just KNEW i was there to see you
your arrogance astounds me
i can never tell you how i feel
face to face
so this is how i do it
because i am afaid you will unleash the darkness within me
with your vipers tongue
how vain you must be
to think i am nothing
to pretend that i am not beautiful
the light withing me outshines your cruelty
no longer will i be goaded into being of low character
no more will i give you the power of turning me into a b&%*h with one word
i am not that girl anymore
and you are not that special to me
i can look up at the sky at night
i can gaze at the stars without a twinge of heartache
on this road i travel alone
and grateful for it,
for now is the time
i remember who i was
and who i want to be
the overwhelming idea of loving you is gone
replaced by a clear vision of where i am going
if i happen to meet you along the way
i will say hello and go on
i will chalk you up to a learning experience
that day when you saw me,
that was the day i really said goodbye
that was the day i had realized that i still had something to look for.
this isn't a poem just a realization. i stopped wanting to be in love that day
