The time that I've wasted is my biggest regret,
Spent in this place I'll never forget.
Just sitting and thinkin about the things that I've done,
The crying, the laughing, the hurt, and the fun.
Now it's just me and my hard driven guilt,
Behind a wall of emptiness I allowed to be built.
I'm trapped in my body, just waiting to run,
Back to my youth with it's laughter and fun.
But the chase is over and theres no place to hide,
Everythings gone including my pride.
With reality suddenly rite in my face,
I'm scared, alone, and stuck in this place.
Now the memories of the past flash through my head,
And the pain is obvious by the tears that I shed.
I ask myself why and where I went wrong,
I guess I was weak when I should of been strong.
Living for the drugs and the wings I had grown,
My feelings were lost, afraid to be shown.
As I look at my past, it's so easy to see,
The fear that I had, afraid to be me.
I'd pretend to be rugged, so fast and so cool,
When actually lost like a blinded old fool.
I'm getting too old for this tiersome game,
Of acting real hard with no sense of shame.
It's time that I change and get on with my life,
Fulfilling my dreams for a family with strife.
What my future with hold I really don't know,
But the years that I've wasted are starting to show.
I just live for the day when I'll get a new start,
And the dreams that I still hold deep in my heart.
I hope I can make it I'll at least have to try,
Because I'm heading toward death and I don't wanna die!
