Wow...it is like you are talking about me. its errie how much i relate to it. im freaked out. I don't know how to help you because i feel the same way, but i can tell you that it will end and you can't let someone stop you from becoming who you were born to be. so many people in this world are unsuccessful and miserable because they let others destroy who they are. don't let your struggles destroy your destiny. everyone on this earth has a reason-many times they let their struggles destroy it.