Misled Fete, Misled Girl

~I know it is long, but please read it, it brings a tear to my eye~

what was it that brought this life to me?
what was it that made me live this life
what was it that turned my world around
what was it that turned my smile into a frown
was it all a bit of misled fete?

does anyone deserve this?
i want the hard truth
do i deserve this
so than what did i do?
am i another misled girl?

running out of reasons of why this world is so cold and cruel
running out of hope that this will all soon stop
running out of dreams, being taken by my nightmares
running out of goals because there are none i can accomplish
all because i am a misled girl, with a misled fete

can someone tell me now why these voices never seem to leave
can someone tell me now why i am always doing these things
so all night long, here we go again
making sure i bleed
escaping from this world
the world in which i don't belong
this couldn't be fete
this couldn't be planned

so maybe i did cut just a bit too deep
and maybe one day soon this blood will not weep
maybe my heart will one day mend again
maybe my soul and my spirit will assend
taking me up
higher than the clouds
into a place where my true life will lie

this was meant to be
that is why I'm here
all this time i was wondering
maybe i was meant to die
i was just a misled girl with a misled fete

daddy i am sorry for all the trouble i caused
and mummy, you must know
i will always be yours
but the children from school
they didn't understand
i might of been quiet
i know i never took a stand

they bullied me and beat me
threw me far from this world
they laughed at me and taunted me
you never knew how it felt
being a misled girl
without a friend

so hear my final message
to all the people that did this
i thank you for finding
that this is where i truly belong

(C) Lucy Green
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