Ni

I used to consider you a friend
But I guess I was wrong
I thought things would never end
But I guess I made a mistake
I used to think we connected
But now I know better
I just got rejected
By someone I used to trust

I stood by as you fell
I wish I hadn’t though
I put myself through a living hell
I should have just left
But I stuck around as you got high
I just ignored the truth
I would sit there and lie
Telling myself there was nothing going on

I’m surprised you don’t have an STD
With how much you slept around
You gave your innocence for free
Without thinking about it
I should have just walked away
But I am not like you
I’m not the type to betray
So I stood by your side

I sometimes wish I could go back
Try to stop the pain from starting
Maybe help you OD on crack
And just not get hurt
I should have left when I had the chance
But maybe because I’ve known you so long
You sort of had me in a trance
That I couldn’t manage to break

You helped kill my innocence
Not the same kind that you lost
But you also helped me build a defense
Against this cold world
You caused me to pick up the knife
And start up this cycle
You helped ruin my life
Thanks for ending my happiness

*The title is pronounced knee. It's an old nickname of the person who this is about*