Forever erased

You were there for me
through thick and thin

you held me up
never let me fall

you stood by me--
through it all

you saw my life shatter
and helped pick me up

you're life crumbled beneath you
and you had no one else

i wanted to be there
like you were for me

i needed to see you
needed you to need me

you said it was OK
that you had it under control

i shouldn't have listened
i should have known

you weren't OK
i could tell from the scars

i wouldn't believe
you'd let it get that far

then i couldn't deny it
after the one fatal cut

the blood pouring from your wrist
and the smile you held

you told me it wasn't my fault
that i was the only one not to blame

but i took it on myself
i knew it was me

if i had been more there
you'd be here with me

but instead your gone
its almost been 3 years

i can't hide the pain i feel
the pain you put me through

I've never talked about it
and i never will

you are the only one
i confined in this sin

i didn't see it coming
didn't realize your pain

and thus i suffer this guilt
the tears that come each day

I'm sorry for letting you down
for allowing you to fall

i wish i could be there for you
and take back this all

but your gone forever
I'll never again see your face

the smile you brought to mine
is forever erased

~~Craig W. November 4, 1990 to May 10, 2002...i will alwayz love you Craig, and you will never leave my heart~~