Closing In

Why am i holding back now?
I don't even know,
Why don't I just draw the blade?
And see the sight of my blood flow,

I can't stand by myself any longer,
I need someone holding me near,
But I'm scared of letting someone in,
I'm scared and I'm locked in by fear,

Everywhere i turn are reminders,
Of how i could just cut my skin,
And how soothing it is to watch,
The life slowly seep from within,

Please someone help me conquer,
All that i cannot defeat,
Please someone up above,
On my life, please press delete,

Weighed down by the tears still spilling,
Weighed down by the hurt so hard,
Weighed down by tears so blackened,
And weighed down by a heart so charred,

Closing in on me now,
I have nowhere left to turn,
I am struggling not to cut,
And i can't help but watch my soul burn,

Closing in on me so tight now,
I think i have lost sight of the end,
Closing in so tight, suffocation,
It's driving me round the bend,

I have no room to move,
That blade, so close to my wrist,
And i don't know if i can fight much longer,
How did i get to this?

-feeling bad so really appreciate anything you have to say

*All votes and comments greatly appreciated as always*