It's gone

Whats happening to me.Ive lost a huge part of me. That part was my strength. I wasnt shy.I could be something strong and confident.It was me .I made me persevere through life.It's the thing that trully forms me.Now I feel something new.Its replaced a huge part of me.Right now Im exploring it .But the fog is so heavy .I cant see.But it feels all different.The dampness surrounding me.I've transformed for the worst.I want it back.But it no longer courses through me.Who I am.