Bringing It All To Light

It's just not right,
I've got to face these fears,
Head on,
I've fought every night,
To be safe,
Feel like myself,
Others know now,
I'm within their sight,
But too far away,
To benefit,
From their light,
They haven't reached out,
Because They don't know,
I tried forgetting,
The faces lit,
The enemies fight,
Inside my head,
Giving me a mental low,
I can't face it,
I wish I could,
Every single bit,
Just got to hold on tight,
But instead,
I'll get this hurt,
What do I do?,
I need someone to save me,
Hoping they just might,
Find me here in the dark,
In the dirt,
Do I smile on cue?,
Do I hide from you?,
I just do not know,
What do I need to do?,
To ruin this never ending flow,
Of low belief,
And this low self-esteem,
To end the tears,
Causing this stream,
Ruining me,
Bringing me to my knees,
Things just aren't as they seem,
When will it ever be?