Inside out

Sad eyes
Slow goodbyes
Some half-truths
And more lies

Silent screams
Questions lurk
My conscience beams
And I feel like a jerk

Pleading silently
And hurting privately
My heart beats forlorn
But all I seem to get is scorn

Desolate, although not alone
But I can't tell anyone
And let my cover be blown

Words are futile
Even if I were brave enough to speak them
My situation is brutal
But it's all my fault

Anger piercing
Uncertainty tearing at me
Fearing my blame is unreasonable
Feeling fragile, but still unbreakable

Inside out
Flooding emotions
Wandering thoughts
Weird notions

Solutions that don't seem right
But they seem to be the only easy way
Don't take me wrong, I'm not a wimp
I am trying to put up a fight