Lonely Diminsion

It's another Friday night
everyone out parting having fun
while I'm stuck in this lonely dimension
full of my thoughts and friends
only i can hear them speak
hear them tell me the painful truth
i want to close my ears
run from them
but i know they are right
i am not loved by thous around me
only by the inner voices
which lay buried deep within myself
they're right
they're always right
pain is comforting
hunger is power
no one else understands
i don't expect them too
i don't want them to
they would just mock me
ridicule me
break me down more
i already am nothing
how smaller can i get
i am told i have friends
yet they don't even call
that's OK
i know I'm not worth
the time or the effort
so i don't blame them
and as they continue to slip away
I'll remain in my hell hole
of darkness and pain
by the time anyone realizes it
it will be too late
the shadows will have completely
devoured and consumed me
and they will forget me
and go on with their lives
no one dares to enter
no one dares to care
I've gotten used to it
it doesn't hurt as much
it's time to make
another piece of art on my art gallery
that i always carry
though it's always covered
always hidden
from the public
they wouldn't understand that either
they call it self-mutilation
i call it self-beautification
oh well let them call me crazy
let them laugh at me
the voices are the only ones
that understand
they're the only ones that can comfort me
by letting me slip away and vanish
so let me go where I'm wanted
into the depths of my
lonely dimension
there i will at least be with thous
who want the same as i
pain
isolation
death
so let me go
forget me
i know that's not hard
tonight my chariot of darkness will come
and take me away
while everyone else is out partying
it's just another Friday night