In Front of Me

You took your last breath
In front of me
I saw you with my own eyes
As you got down on one knee

You were stumbling with your words
Not knowing what to say
You told me that you loved me
That your sorry you couldn't stay

Your eyes rolled back
Into your head
You fell face first to the ground
I saw that you were dead

I fell by your side
As I started to cry
I couldn't accept the truth
All I could do is ask God why

Why did you go
I wish it would've been me
You brought happiness to my world
You are the one who was always there for me

You didn't have to end your life
I could've eased your pain
You should have talked to me
Instead of dealing with all your pain

I wanted you to be here
To stand by my side
But instead you decided to leave me
Now I have to hide

Hide from all these people
That only bring me pain
Hide from this cruel world
Because it only drives me insane

I wish you would have held on
For me
I wish you were still here
To help me believe

I now know anything is possible
But I'm falling so fast
Soon I wont be able to take it
I wont be able to last

I go through each day
Wishing I could see your face
Hoping that one day
We will see each other in another place

I will wait until the day comes
When I must go
I know your still waiting
For me to show

This pain eats me up
It swallows my pride
I feel so unloved
I feel like I'm being denied

Denied the happiness
That you once brought
Denied the love
That me and you fought

We fought to keep it alive
We never let it go
We held onto our love
But we never let it show

You were my friend
I was your big cousin
You let me go
Because of your love

You didn't want me to be put in danger
So you stayed away
You didn't tell me why
Until your final day

You tried to leave
But they wouldn't let you go
They beat you to nothing
Your bruises did show

They threatened your life
They followed you around
You couldn't take it anymore
But you never made a sound

You never told anyone
What was going on
You never told anyone
That something was wrong

The gang you were in
Only caused you pain
You couldn't hold on any longer
You didn't want to live in shame

So you took your life
To ease your pain
What about me
With out you here I'm full of shame

I feel like I wasn't there for you
That it’s my fault you’re gone
That you joined the gang
To feel like you had won

You wanted to feel loved
You needed someone by your side
You ran to the gang
To make you feel pride

You should have come to me
You know I would’ve helped
You should have trusted me
You don’t know what I felt

The moment you told me
That you couldn't stay
Is the last time I told you I loved you
It’s the last time I ever prayed

Now you’re gone
I feel so numb
I’m hiding from this world
Im waiting for my life to be done.