A Dark Confession

We used to be friends..two of the best
We had more fun then all the rest.
But deep down,both of us knew..
That our friendship was nothing
But A Big Excuse.
What we wanted was more then this
Because friends don't share a special kiss.
We wanted love,and thats a fact.
But we ended up getting more then that.
I claimed you,you claimed me.
It was better then a fantasy.
But no matter what,i needed you more.
There was always someone else that you adored.
No matter what i wasn't enough.
That wasn't a committed love.
You didn't feel the way
That i felt about you.
Its plain to see our love was less then true.
But as odd as it is..i still loved you.
You made me feel a certain way..
That no other guy could ever obtain.
The love that i once had for you..
Was more then love,more then true.
I acted strange,i changed myself.
To make you happy..i nearly killed myself.
What odd things that i had thought.
All for a guy,who my heart has caught.
But the painful thing is..you thought it was a game.
A game where you would win this way.
You thought in the end,i would be the same.
That it wouldn't hurt me in any way.
You were wrong,isn't that true?
That i had broken my heart because of you?
And even still..you got my hopes up.
Told me you wanted,needed,more love.
So i came crawling back.
Trying to get what we once had.
And every time,i fell harder.
Because of love that you were trying to barter.
So now that we are not friends..
That our friendship has reached its end..
I only have this to say.
Since we haven't been friends,i nearly cried.
Tears had once filled my eyes.
Not from regret,not from obsession.
But from holding in a dark confession.