I know this is long but please read it...
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To feel the hurt and pain inside is more than I can bear,
Even though I feel the strongest love my heart is in utter despair.
Past joys and happiness the sound of laughter so real,
A pain deep within my soul has caused it all to be concealed.
The continued burden of sorrow is a heavy load to take,
Crumbling me slowly down because of all my mistakes.
Watch me fall, watch me break hear me hit the ground,
For the strength that I once possessed is nowhere to be found.
A cry of help is ringing out it's a pleading from my lips,
Just a wanting for companionship grasping with my finger tips.
Oh please if you can hear me lend me your heart I pray,
The burden is getting heavier the loneliness of nighttime
rides with me every day.
See me bleed my open wounds expose my heart to the pain,
For the deeds I have done before have cut me once again.
See me cry these salted tears cascading down my face,
I need to just stop the hurt I need peace in its place.
I sit here and I can picture the happier days gone by
when love was in its sweetest bloom and a smile was followed with a sigh.
But now that picture holds the pain of what is present today
There are no longer sighs of sweet love since my love has gone away.
I am wearing my heart upon my sleeve and maybe I do care to much
But this is who I am you know a lover of you and your touch.
I open my heart and I look back wondering if with this glance
you are making your final exit or will I ever have another chance.
I never meant to hurt you never wanted to see your tears
my actions were that of anger and of all my hidden fears.
I never meant to say the things but with my ignorance I did
if I could only make it up to you I just hope it's not too late -
a lot has been said.
So when you come upon me again please don't pull away
for no angry words will be spoken I learned my lesson that day.
But if I could turn the clock back I would do so in no time
for I once had everything when you had then been mine.
My heart it does ache for you and my soul it does yearn
that what was once so special be destroyed by words so stern.
So next time love comes knocking out of reach I will remain
For what has love truly given me nothing but sorrow and pain.
So must I turn back the page on my book of dreams
must I start over it's harder than it seems.
If there is love and understanding how can I feel this pain
for you are the sun within my life my rainbow after the rain.
See me curl up as a child banishing the world outside
for what I want is protection in your arms I wish to hide.
See me beg on my knees I need help to carry me through
for I can not go on like this Help me - I beg of you.
