Today

And just so you know
today i picked it up again
the knife i had left on the shelf
three months it sat and collected dust
i finally gave in
but before i went to place i used to think
And for the first time in years
The tears poured out
I couldn't stop them
All i could think about was you
And how much I've hurt you
So much pain I've caused everyone
I'm not perfect
How do you see past my imperfections
How can you stay with the way i treat you
And again today i cut away my pain
You were all so proud to know that i had stopped
And today i cried to ease the hurt
I cried cause i could see the pain I cause you
I really think you'd be better off without me
All the fights I've caused
Things have been better with you in my life
but i will never be fine
And today i want to apologize
I'm sorry but temptation was too hard to fight